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i believe... [Feb. 11th, 2011|10:23 am]
superama
well i guess first of all i should say i do not believe in established religion.

Ween recently (though maybe not officially) converted to Islam. I have been fascinated by the religion since well..Naveeda. It's true. But i dont think its a bad thing. I recently visited a mandala meeting with my mom. at the end of the meeting we all had to say what we had learned. I didn't have anything to say...so i said something i thought everyone would like "I need to be more open minded" But you know, as the words escaped my lips, i realized i dont need to be more open minded, i already am. The "lesson of the day" was pretty much that we are put on this earth to learn. And i completely agree. and i love learning. i love cultures and languages and analyzing people. after ween and i broke up i really opened up my life to new ideas. I am willing to watch movies that dont initially interest me, play a video game, and im willing to give any band a shot once. i like listening to people's experiences and views.

once when ween and i broke up i read this book called somethin like " does this make my head look big"....


and to be continued. ....

i think i might write a book :)

even if its just for me haha.
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okay im back.

So yeah
I dont like established religion because theyre so adamant on believing theyre right. But really, why does it matter? i guess thats what religion is for..to say "this is the right way to live your life" but fuck that noise. whats right for YOU may not be right for ME.

Christianity belives we should follow God's word based on the teachings if Jesus.
Islam believes we should follow God's word based on the teachings of Mohammed. The only (well BIGGEST) difference is the vector. Who cares about who said what? they basically say the same things. Arent mormons similar? But their vector is B. Young or something a long those lines?In fact, from what i know (which could be very wrong bc ive never looked into it) Judaism skips the vector and goes straight to the source. I think that's why i like the idea of Buddism and the asian (excuse the lack of political correctness in the term) religions. From what i understand, those religions and cultures focus on ME connecting with God through prayer/meditation.

Its not that i dont believe in Prophets. Maybe they were special and got to talk to god on a deeper level. But i cant say i agree with everything they say. How do i know they didnt make it up? How do i know they werent liars or schizophrenics. How do i know someone didnt write make a mistake in all the translations of their book. How do i know what was right for them is right for us now? The world has changed from the days those books were written.

Why are there no more prophets? why cant anyone today, with all the madness and evil in the world, why isnt there someone to guide us through this mess? I believe through prayer and/or meditation we can all get a glimpse of what is morally correct. Isnt that also one of the reasons for religion? so we all "behave" and go to heaven? Christians say if you dont believe in Christ and accept him in your heart youre going to hell. WHY? he's not God, why does it matter? Maybe the same thing doesnt go for Islam, but why do i have to believe Mohammed was THE final profet? it doesnt make sense that God would want his words spoken only in Arabic. Why arent his words for the world to hear AND understand?


I believe anyone can connect with God. I think most religions "believe" that too, thats why prayer is enforced in most of them. So the messenger isnt important. Thats what I think.

Ween said something along the lines of "God is so great, he should be worshipped and thanked for what he's given us" <- SUPER PARAPHRASED
I don't disagree. But is the form of worship as important and the act of worshipping? i dont think so. i mean...arent we taught "its the thought that counts?" so why arent a few simple words good enough? i do think we spend too much time wrapped up in our lives, i do think we should spend more time in worship. BUT God created the earth for us to inhabit and enjoy. there is so much good and beauty out there, we should admire it, and not waste our time being angry and hateful...and judging. instead we should learn from others.. from the world. Our world is changing and growing...and what better way to show we care than by protecting it..and learning from it?

gotta work. i'll be back.

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back.

so where was i? right. enjoy the world god created for us.

as for rules and regulations...according to islam (at least the ONE book i read, which is not the Koran so its possible its wrong, but it sounded good to me)the day of judgement..God doesn't really do the judging...your own soul judges the actions of your life. you burn yourself through your guilt..without the lies we tell ourselves to convince us our wrongdoings are justified. So then, God gave us a mind to make our own choices, no? we can live our lives how we see fit. No rules. Morals. Do whats right. thats all there is to it.

God.
God is not man. He's not a giant person hanging out in space or heaven or some alternate universe. God is everywhere. God is in you and me and in the sun and moon and earth and sky. To ME, god is the energy that makes us be. not atoms and particles. the friction between them. he's what makes my heart beat, and the spark between the neurons. science tells me everything about atoms and protons and neutrons. one thing hits another, makes the ball start rolling..yadah yadah. but what about the empty space. Thats where MY god lives.

and you know what? I think the muslim women have it right about the headscarf, hijab? Yeah. Thats right. I think, if it werent a trademark of being muslim, i would do it. im not gonna lie, as a psych major part of it would be a social experiment- to see how the world reacts to me. but more than that...TO ME...i think itd be a matter of privacy and pride. I should be more than just what i look like. i should be completely happy with me. you should judge me on my actions and the words that come out of my mouth. not what im wearing or my hair. i think itd be nice to be able to wait until i care for someone enough to show them more of me. to share with them another part of me. i think it would make the relationship more intimate, cuz it covers more than just the hair, the custom of covering up really gives ambiguity to the shape and appearance of a woman.





and thats what i think.
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[User Picture]From: kittyluvs2sing6
2011-02-24 06:25 am (UTC)
yay. finally read it!!
good job, ama.
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