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[Dec. 7th, 2009|04:42 pm] |
the massage dude said i have negative energy. i think he's right. its probably bc i do things i think are wrong. that doesnt mean they are wrong..but i feel like they are. and i do them anyway...i justify my actions to myself, but its still doesnt make them right..not in my head. i guess smoking is a good example. i like it, so i do it..but i usually tell myself im not going to cuz i think smoking is bad. i mean, ass long as you're getting your shit you done, then it doesnt matter what you do on your spare time, right?
do you justify your actions to yourself? i feel like almost everything i do has to be justified. instead of just doing/acting/living/being. i need to justify it. its really a bother. it makes me nervous and anxious. thats not what life is for!
on an even more random note:
what do you think of when you're having sex? |
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| fuck you :) |
[Nov. 6th, 2009|06:49 pm] |
when was i a shitty friend to you?
i think it was when i hugged you when you were sad
or when i was there when no one else was
perhaps when i changed my plans to help you when you needed me.
yes.
that must've been it.
im sorry i sucked so hard. |
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| friends... |
[Sep. 27th, 2009|10:50 am] |
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lizz might leave again? i guess it doesnt really matter, i'll miss her but its not like i hang out with her too much. it kinda sucks though i'll be alone again. gabi's gonna be gone next semester too...it makes me sad. at least last time i wasnt alone cuz ween was with me. guess i'll find a new friend when the time comes....theres nohing else i can do, right? |
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|02:27 pm] |
good to know my entries aren't in vain :) but now my question is if u read entries why dont you post any? gosh. :-P
last night was funnn! went to a co-workers party n got drunk teehee :) then went to another co-workers house n smoked a bit. then i went to ween's n puked. oops! now i know why people are supposed to eat b4 drinking. i felt like such a light weight, wtf.
today the plan is to study and to watch true blood. that is all lol. im not gonna lie, i really wanna catch the disney channel line up but sadly, hw is more important :( i need my lab manual for micro!! uh oh!!!! i'll ask my rents for cash tonight cuz even tho i have 2 jobs and pay no bills, im broke. wtf. i think i should work on my saving skills.....im out of things to say so i guess i'll stop pracrastinating now and get back to the books....
bye livejournal.......
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bye everyone......
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lol. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2009|02:00 pm] |
im sitting in the living room listening to my mom talk. she says she wants to have an hacienda made for the family. that would be cool. seems a tad bit expensive tho. i dont have anything exciting to say...i just decided to update cuz i was scrolling down my friends page and there was only 2 people on the whole page. i decided to ad an entry to your friends page.
hello person reading this.
i dont think anyone does.
i tend to block some of my entries cuz i dont want random people reading it...but i dont think anyone does anyway.
do you? |
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[Mar. 20th, 2009|06:38 pm] |
i can see clearly now, the astigmatism is gone! i can see all obstacles in my way.....all of the blurryness has gone away. its gonna be a bright bright briiiight sunshining day.
woot! lasik went smoothly
:) |
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| to lizz |
[Sep. 29th, 2008|01:25 am] |
life is really mellow right now. im in school, taking more classes than i'd like to and not spending enuff time on them. meh. they're boring as hell. i went to hestec this weekend but i didnt really get to look around since i was helping set up the science exhibits. a bunch of pple were doin it for extracredit but i was just guilted into it. the professor was like "itll look good on your resume" so i felt i needed to do sumthin to enhance mine a bit. nxt time i have a weekend of sum time off i'll prolly go hit up the humane society.
i wanna sell my blood but i dunno kno where the blood bank is and im afraid to go during the week since i have to go to band practice in the afternoons and i dont know if its open on the weekends, october is comming up. that kinda sucks cuz fridays game night n saturday is competition. that means less ween time. boo. i need to make some new friends. im meeting pple cuz im taking like 5 science classes n i have sum of the same girls for multiple classes. i dunno, ima start with like study groups n maybe go on from there.
i rushed for kdchi n i got a bit (an invitation to pledge) but yvette didnt get one so i felt guilty pledging without her. it didn't seem right to go through the process without her but now i kinda wish i had cuz im still friend-less. hmm. some of the girls were kinda rude anyway, so mb i didnt make the wrong choice.
i didnt make the wrong choice b4. it was never a choice.
its been 3 weeks and i havnet been accused of anything stupid:D that makes me happy. i hope its over. ween says im jinxing it, but i have hope. this has been going on too long.
whats a friendship, anyway? is it someone you know and love or is it someone you talk to and trust?
whats love? is it when you feel warm and comfortable and know everything is okay, or is it when the butterflies at the pit of ur stomach never go away?
whats family? is it the people connected to you by blood or the people you cant live without?
when is it too young to drink?
why is everyone a hypocrite?
too manny questions.
i think i should be asking myself "where is the mesoderm?" and "what is the second stage of embryonic development?"
is this a nice random post, ms. lizz?
:)
it felt good to just think. |
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[Sep. 15th, 2008|08:12 pm] |
so i have about a million things due tomorrow, 2 of which i've started..and am less than 1/2 way done with...but i feel like posting.
i've had this thing forever, but i only have like 10 posts within the past year, so i think that means i suck at journal keeping.
anyway, i dont know wat to write. i have nothing important to say. i want ice cream. i dont want to write these papers. hmm. i hate speaking in public. i want to smooookkkkkkeeeeee! damnit, its been too long. thats okay tho, when lizz comes back it'll be the best flying experience ever. i just hope my rents dont decide to go to san marcos that weekend. i want to sell my blood. $40 will come in handy. blah. i should get back to the damn opinion paper, not using the word "I" thats dumb. |
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[Sep. 10th, 2008|09:30 pm] |
better not turn this around again.
i suppose there wont be anything left to do but play your own game. |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2008|05:52 pm] |
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aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!
Damnit, child! Why won't you just leave me the fuck alone???
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| lala |
[Aug. 11th, 2008|06:12 pm] |
new job! woot! :D i hope i dont fuck things up. so far so good :)
things with ween and i are good. drama between us is easily fixed and outside people can suck their own nuts.
leaving quiznos is gonna be interesting, i dunno how im gonna handle it, hopefully well.
change is here. im gonna miss all three of you intensely, but i think i have to move on. im gonna have to make new friends and talk to new people. maybe i'll be a better student while im at it. my grades are good, im not gonna lie, but i think its cuz panam is easy. i luck out a LOT and all of my professors curve. i need to absorb everything so i can decide if this is really what i want. i need to look into grad schools and what the requirements are for them.
im gonna take this time to grow. ween says im a better person than i think i am; idk if thats true or not, but i know i could be better. idk at what, maybe life in general. i tend to suck alot. lol. |
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| today |
[Feb. 28th, 2008|11:41 pm] |
is exactly months since my grampa died.
is the day victoria pruneda was born
was a reallly busy work day
i talked to mae after months of not seeing her
im supposed to be studying for my chem test
was a strangely eventful unevenful day |
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| HELP!!! |
[May. 30th, 2007|01:53 am] |
Alright everyone, i know this sounds absolutely insane but i've gots a plan!!!!
i wanna get as many people as i possibly can to march to the state capital in protest of the war in iraq. this is only a vague idea, we dont know when, tho its prolly next summer, and we dont know how...but the idea is we get everyone from every state we know to be in on this march with us. im thinking i know people in connecticut (yasmmyn), illinois (shirley), and wisconsin (chester). Amy Skaria and Laura DelaGarza are in mass. but idk if they'd want to help, or if they'd even be interested. but still...thats people. Lizz knows pple in California...i dont know...i think if this is big enough it might make a difference. if you read this tell me what you think, whether u think its far fetched or if u want to help, let me know. |
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[Jan. 5th, 2007|12:36 am] |
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damn
that made me feel sick
i wonder if thats really wat it was.
i feel like throwing up. |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2006|10:27 pm] |
soo...
lol
life
its interesting right now
i've been suprising myself of late
i havent been updating cuz well..i dont like to often since my life is boring
but its not really now
i just cant say
:)
secrets!
and presents!!
i need money to buy presents!!!
hehehe.
im in a good mood even tho im SOOOOOO procrastinating the damn research paper
i work all day tomorrow
hurray!
lol
after work should be fun
i'll fnd SOMETHING to do
family wil be down by tomorrow
then TURKEYDAY
i mean..
thanksgiving
yes
thanks
hehe
lots of Thanks
no turkey
hehehe.
watever
i want starbucks...
today is the first day in 3 days i havent had starbucks
i think its called addiction
but im poor now..again soo..
no more starbucks for me!
least not for another 2 weeks...
or my brother is working
i think thats all
i hope u were entertained
tho i doubt u were
BYE!!! |
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| halloween |
[Nov. 1st, 2006|11:23 pm] |
today sucked my life.
:(
i try to like halloween, i do, but halloween doesnt like me. |
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[Oct. 26th, 2006|10:13 pm] |
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does anyone know where i can get a fairy costume that will fit me??? i'd prefer a black skirt/black top kinda thing...but i'll take any suggestions. im sad. i need a costume :( |
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[Oct. 23rd, 2006|03:10 am] |
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hehe my monkey is going to area. im so happy for her :) |
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